Time Check
Basically, I’ve kind of failed what I set out to do upon joining NS.
I’m letting my ego take over, I’m having unjustified highfalutin ideas of my own capabilities, and I’m not exercising enough patience, balance, and rationality in my actions towards an unfavorable situation.
And that just about sums up my first two weeks in officer school.
Don’t get me wrong, I love the place. The PT is awesome, the punishment’s effective, and the regimentation - despite me not being to see the logic behind it sometimes - is indeed molding me into a more disciplined person.
My only bugbear is my attitude.
Why is it changing? I feel it from the very first thoughts that come to my mind when I think of how I should react. I see it during the occasions where my resolve breaks and I put those thoughts into action.
It wasn’t this way previously. Why now?
I take this as a note to myself. May this nonsense end with this self-realization.
